general cyrus adamos . 24 . bisexual . left — handed . 10 / 02 / xx .appearance black hair . sage eyes . 171 cm . one freckle underneath his left eye . several ear piercings . nose stud . small scar on his jaw .personality cyrus has borderline personality disorder ( bpd ) , a mental disorder characterized by unstable moods , behaviors , and relationships .pros extremely loyal . affectionate ( to some ) . empathetic . caring . loving . high energy ( often ) .cons very sensitive to tone changes . always overthinks . cries very easily . hot and cold . obsessive . disregulated .likes hot showers . thunderstorms . bees . peach flavored drinks . stuffed animals . lemons . hydrangeas . minecraft .dislikes conflict ( real or perceived ) . crowds of people . loud noises . spiders .

family noah ( father ) . thalia ( mother ) . jasper ( older brother ) . estranged from all . statuses are unknown .background unwanted by his father from the moment he was born , him and his mother were subjected to daily abuse . his older brother jasper was the “ golden child ” in his father’s eyes and was this exempt from this abuse .his father sexually assaulted him when he was 13 and then again at 17 . his mother tried her best to protect her son but was always prevented or punished by her husband . his memories of his mother are fragmented but he cherishes them , no matter how brutal they are .in both elementary and middle school , cyrus always made honor roll . he was athletic , social , and made friends very easily , unlike his older brother , who he often tried to include in anything he was doing .jasper always tried to comfort cyrus after their father’s rampages , but just like the mother , was always torn away .his brother convinced cyrus to move out with him when he turned 19 with the promise of saving him from the abuse . unfortunately , jasper became even worse than his father , acting like they were a couple , forcing cyrus to have sex with him , and introducing them as such . he was a complete narcissist and would oscillate between love — bombing and neglect . cyrus stayed because he was constantly told jasper would hunt him down and kill him if he left .cyrus escaped one night when jasper was drunk but was dragged back inside the house and beaten until he was unconscious . he was rushed to the emergency room with internal bleeding from blunt force trauma and moved up to the icu .cyrus filed a restraining order on his older brother but doesn’t have many memories from that time .he’s been living on his own for almost 2 years now and recently started attending college , entering his sophomore year and majoring in biochemistry .

rules mdni . lots of tws including ㅤㅤ ptsd , different forms of abuse , self harm , eating disorders , etc . please be kind . mun is 25 . goes by aurora . she / her pronouns .i work full time in mental health and am in an accelerated master’s program . i also struggle with my own mental health , so please be patient with replies .

headcannons♯ 1 : the most apparent symptoms of his bpd are risky behaviors ( e . g . sex , drinking excessively ) , irrational anger, extreme attachments , mood swings , and erratic behavior in response to real or perceived abandonment .♯ 2 : homemade chocolate chip cookies and chocolate covered strawberries are his favorite snacks .♯ 3 : cyrus tends to be very soft and gentle with women but abrasive and bratty with men .♯ 4 : he is extremely book smart but lacks a lot of real world knowledge and social skills . he’ll stick forks in toasters , leaving candles burning when he falls asleep , etc . he also tends to trauma dump on people in an attempt to grow closer .♯ 5 : cyrus gravitates towards narcissistic / abusive partners because that's what he's familiar with. it's almost comforting .♯ 6 : despite being very social , cyrus has trouble reading social cues and becomes overstimulated very easily .♯ 7 : he has dimples on both cheeks but hates them .♯ 8 : cyrus is left — handed but taught himself how to use his right as well .♯ 9 : cyrus loves being kissed and held but has trouble allowing people to touch him at first .♯ 10 : he had a speech impediment as a child . it’ll often resurface when he’s under a lot of stress and panicking .♯ 11 : he is incredibly smart and had maintained almost perfect grades through all of his middle and high school career , even graduating in the national honor society .♯ 12 : he swears all the time . it’s constant and a large part of his vocabulary .♯ 13 : there are periods of his life that he doesn't remember at all.♯ 14 : cyrus is extremely intelligent but never received good grades during college because of his bad attendance and missing assignments .♯ 15 : having bpd, cyrus possesses a heightened sense of emotional empathy but little to no cognitive empathy.♯ 16 : to keep up his appearance for his father as the “ perfect son ” , cyrus played multiple sports including baseball , ice hockey , and muay thai .♯ 17 : cyrus isn't himself when he’s tired or drunk . he either becomes a lot softer , sleepy , or very sarcastic .♯ 18 : the hyper - sexualization of himself stems from the abuse he endured by his father / brother .♯ 19 : he has a small birthmark underneath his left eye, right above his cheekbone .♯ 20 : his favorite colors are black, green, and silver .♯ 21 : he attributes most scars on his body to childhood incidents / surgeries because he doesn't remember how they happened .♯ 22 : he struggles with black - and - white thinking . two things that seem to be opposites in his opinion can’t both be true . people and things are either all good or all bad and often gets frustrated at people who try to explain why that's wrong .♯ 23 : he owns several pairs of military — style boots , along with some converse and even a pair of heelies .♯ 24 : for a few years he hated the feeling of denim and would have a meltdown if forced to wear it ( screaming, biting, crying, kicking, etc ) .♯ 25 : his favorite movie is coraline! he's obsessed with it .♯ 26 : he's extremely ticklish .♯ 27 : nothing much frightens / disturbs him anymore after what his father and brother did .♯ 28 : he often threatens to hurt people because healthy, honest communication is very difficult for him .♯ 29 : he associates love with pain / abuse . if someone is not like this with him , cyrus gets very flustered .♯ 30 : cyrus has an intense fear of water because his father used fill the sink with ice water and hold his head under.♯ 31 : there’s no contact from his family so he constantly doubts anything happened to him and thinks he’s just faking it .♯ 32 : he has perfect vision .♯ 33 : he has several nervous tics : he picks his nails when he’s anxious , bounces his leg , scratches himself , flexes his fingers , pulls his hair or flicks his midle finger against his thumb for the clicking sound .♯ 34 : he cries at the slightest hint of confrontation . he’s not always upset , his body feels powerless and helpless and it’s an automatic response .♯ 35 : when he gets upset it feels like there’s something inside him that’s driving him to do and say things he does NOT mean . he describes it as similar to blacking out .♯ 36 : he often pushes people away if he feels like he’s being abandoned and will act erratically to get prompt people to fight for him .